Mud Vein:Review

Release Date: April 5th 2014
Genres: NA, Mystery, Romance
Publisher: Self-Published
Series: Standalone
Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
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Summary When reclusive novelist Senna Richards wakes up on her thirty-third birthday, everything has changed. Caged behind an electrical fence, locked in a house in the middle of the snow, Senna is left to decode the clues to find out why she was taken. If she wants her freedom, she has to take a close look at her past. But, her past has a heartbeat…and her kidnapper is nowhere to be found. With her survival hanging by a thread, Senna soon realizes this is a game. A dangerous one. Only the truth can set her free.Tarryn Fisher has been on my autobuy list since i read The Oppurtinist! I loved that book so much and the rest of the series played with my heart strings in a way no other NA book has been able too. I fell head over heels for that series and when people are looking for a real emotional contemporary read i always point them in the direction of the Love Me With Lies series because it’s just so good!  So of course when I read Tarryn Fisher had a new book coming out I was exstatic beyond belief to get my hands on it.

I devoured Mud Vein in just a day. Tarryn Fisher knows how to write. She knows how to carve into your head and pull out all the dark thoughts you’ve ever had and phrase them in a way that’s absoutely beautiful and haunting. It’s what I love about her writing. She’s not afraid to take risks and create stories that are just so damn sad and messed up and that just make you want to yell to up there “What the hell is going on? They don’t deserve to get any more s*** thrown their way!” She makes readers feel very protective over her characters. That being said I did enjoy Mud Vein but i did have a few issues with it:

1)The characters reminded me too much of Olivia and Caleb. This kind of sucked because Senna’s darkness resembled too much of Olivia’s and I just couldn’t help making a few comparisons. The male character also reminded me a bit of Caleb in the early days of The Oppurtunist but i was able to differientiate between them both fairly easily later on and got over it. It was mostly Senna’s resemblance to Olivia that kind of nagged me a bit.

2) Senna’s ending. I’m going to be pretty vague here but while I loved the ending for Mud Vein and how dark it was (it definetly was NOT a happily ever after and I LOVE that) I couldnt help but think it kind of reminded me in of the epilogue for Theif with everything that happens to Olivia but with everything vice versa. The ending for Theif was definetly more positive than the ending for Mud Vein. I’ll say that.

I know some people couldn’t look past these things but when I look back at this book those aren’t the things that stand out too me. I enjoyed reading Mud Vein and felt that it was just the right kind of book I needed at that time. There were so many things i did enjoy from it, too:

1) Tarryn Fisher, like always, writes such a realistic crappy story. I like reading about characters who have crappy lives. It’s just my thing. I know crappy things happen. I’m not oblivouis and i like to every once in a while read books where crappy thing after crappy thing happens to characters because I realize that things like that do happen to some people in life. It’s not fair and it’s not pretty but it’s realistic and I love that.

“You breathed life back into me. It was instinct for me to be there with you. I didn’t want to save you, I just didn’t know how to leave you.”
― Tarryn Fisher, Mud Vein

2) The darkness in this book is beautiful. A properly written dark book can be absolutely beautiful and Tarryn Fisher constantly proves that. Mud Vein is deifnetly her darkest book yet but i found so much beauty in it. The symbolize of the tattoo’s, in colours and even in the fall all resonated with me. I wanted to keep highlighting certain quotes in this book because they were so dark and beautiful and I just never wanted to forget them.

“What’s the difference?” I asked him. “Between the love of your life, and your soulmate?”
“One is a choice, and one is not.― Tarryn Fisher, Mud Vein

3)I never saw the twists coming. Sure, there were a few things i sort of had hunches on but a lot of the big twists were very unexpected for me. I was shocked when certain things happened because i just wasn’t expecting for them too. Mud Vein definetly had the whole mindf*ck thing for me which I loved.

“Love is a Godgiven tool, she tells me. It screws things back in place that were loose, and it cleans out all the broken pieces that you don’t need anymore.” ― Tarryn Fisher, Mud Vein

The truth is Mud Vein is not for everybody. it’s dark and twisted but also ashingly beautiful and haunting. It plays with both your mind and your heart strings and I think that really makes this an either love it or hate it book is whether or not you can connect some way or another with Senna and her darkness. 

“Tell me a truth, Senna.”
“I don’t know how.”
“Then tell me a lie.”
“I don’t love you.”
“The truth is for the mind,” he says. “Lies are for the heart. So let’s just keep lying.”
― Tarryn Fisher, Mud Vein

“There is a string that connects us that is not visible to the eye. Maybe every person has more than one soul they are connected to, and all over the world there are those invisible strings… Maybe the chances that you’ll find each and every one of your soul mates is slim. But sometimes you’re lucky enough to stumble across one. And you feel a tug. And it’s not so much a choice to love them though their flaws and through your differences, but rather you love them without even trying. You love their flaws.”
― Tarryn Fisher, Mud Vein

Dorothy Must Die(Dorothy Must Die#1): Review

Release Date: April 1st 2014
Genres: YA, Romance, Retelling
Publisher: HarperTeen
Series: Book one of trilogy
Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
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Summary:I didn’t ask for any of this. I didn’t ask to be some kind of hero.But when your whole life gets swept up by a tornado—taking you with it—you have no choice but to go along, you know?Sure, I’ve read the books. I’ve seen the movies. I know the song about the rainbow and the happy little blue birds. But I never expected Oz to look like this. To be a place where Good Witches can’t be trusted, Wicked Witches may just be the good guys, and winged monkeys can be executed for acts of rebellion. There’s still the yellow brick road, though—but even that’s crumbling.What happened?Dorothy. They say she found a way to come back to Oz. They say she seized power and the power went to her head. And now no one is safe.My name is Amy Gumm—and I’m the other girl from Kansas.I’ve been recruited by the Revolutionary Order of the Wicked.I’ve been trained to fight.And I have a mission:Remove the Tin Woodman’s heart.Steal the Scarecrow’s brain.Take the Lion’s courage.Then and only then—Dorothy must die!

When I look back on my time reading Dorthy Must Die I notice that while i may not have had the best reading experience with it  at the time I did end up enjoying it in the grand scheme of things. Dorothy Must Die ended up not being what I expected, not in a bad way but not in a “whoa, it was so much better than i first expected it to be” way either. In all honesty the ending was really where things started going the way the synopsis had led me to believe the story was going. So I guess in retrospect I like where the second book is going with the story, in theory.But I think to properly discuss my thoughts on Dorothy Must Die I have to break it down:

1) I liked how Amy Gumm knows the original story of the Wizard of Oz. This scored major points in my book. I don’t think i’ve ever read a retelling where the character was properly aware of the original story the book is based upon but in Dorthy Must Die the main Character, Amy starts making connections and comparasons with the original Wizard of Oz and what’s happening to her. I liked the idea of having a character who wasn’t completely oblivouis to what was happening around to her and it this ended uo enhancing my reading experience.

2) I liked visiting the dark side of Oz. In this retelling Dorothy finds a way back to Oz and goes evil. She finds herself loving the idea of power and wants it ALL. I liked how corrupt Dorothy was in Dorothy Must Die and how we got to get a proper sense of how evil she truly is now. Dorothy does some pretty nasty things in this book to other people and it becomes clear that she isn’t the most civilized person in Oz, either. But other than Dorothy being a grade A b****we see how different Oz is now that Dorothy is taking advantage of everything and everyone.  The scarecow is twisted the Lion has no compassion and the munchckins are too scared to even leave their houses.

3)The romance seemed kind of instalove-ish and sort of slow burning...if that makes any sense. To be honest i’m still sort of scratching my head over the romance. I don’t even know how i feel about it. Amy and Nox meet and immedately feel a connection. It’s obvouis and it seems like from one day to the next they have deep feelings of not wanting to leave one another straight away. Which was very unrealistic and also annoying but then they only really share one kiss and Amy is alone for the better part of the second half of the novel. So i’m still really confused with the romance aspect of this novel because I don’t know how i feel about it (although I know i didn’t love it) and don’t know what to classify it as.

4) I liked Amy’s pet rat, Star. I feel like she deserves her own little section because she was awesome. Dorothy had Toto and Amy has Star. She definetly helps Amy out quite a few times and proves to be an intelligent little rat and I ended up really liking her addition to the story.

5) I was a bit confused with the timing of the story. For the better part of the book I felt that the beginning of the story had gone by to slowly and than all of a sudden things started happening all too fast and Amy was suddenly this trained warrior and I felt like no time had passed at all but then we learn that six months had passed and i was just confused. *bangs head on desk* I wish we could have gotten a few instances in the novel where people in the sotry would have mentioned how long has passed since Amy was back in Kansas versus her telling us when we had about fifty pages left in the novel. it was just kind of disconcerting in all honesty.

7. I don’t think Dorothy Must Die reached it’s full potential. It’s sad to say this but I think this book was in a few ways very much a introductory book. Sure, lots of things happen but i never felt like there was all that much tension in this book. The stakes were never raised high enough. It was sort of obvouis that things in this book were being set up for future books. I also felt that a lot of things were rushed (romance..if you can call it that) and some serouis character development for Nox and other members of the army.

8. I still don’t know all that much about the Revolutionary Order of the Wicked. I was so interested in this particular part of the book but in the end we aren’t really given any real idea of what the revolutionary order of the wicked was. Hell i don’t even know how many people are in it. We only met about five or six characters who are. I hope this is further explored in the next book.

All in all Dorothy Must Die (now that I look back on it) was an enjoyable enough read even if it wasn’t what I was intitally expecting. I do think i’ll continue with this series since I like how things are set up for book two but i sort of feel like this book never reached it’s full potential.

Buying Copies of Books After You’ve Read Them

So I have a confession to make that my wallet isn’t all that happy about. If I really like I book I already read, because I got an ARC of it or borrowed it from the library or a friend i sometime’s still go out and buy myself another copy. I do this because sometimes I just read a book and it gives me ALL.THE.FEELS or challenges my mind in a way something hasn’t in a really long time and I just need to have it in my bookcase. I need to show it off to the world. I want a copy for myself that I am able to hold and pick up whenever I feel like. I want to be able to read it over again or reread just a certain scene when the mood hits.

This of course leads to another problems (other than my wallet always seeming like an empty accessory) I have very little space in my bookcase for more books and I don’t like the idea of giving books away. I’ve only just started to move some of the books i’ve bought that have been two stars reads for me down to the basement to store but I can’t bear to part with them. I don’t like the idea of giving books away, be it to the library or selling them online or whatever it is some people do. Books are like my babies and I don’t want to part with them. Even the one’s I don’t like. I don’t even like the idea of putting them in the basement for storage because I like the idea of keeping them in plain sight for people to see, for me to see. I like looking at the bookcase, seeing a book and remembering my reading expereince with it. Is that crazy?

So how about you? Do you buy your own copies of books even after you’ve read them for your bookcase? Do you buy finished copies of your favouritte ARCS and reread them?Are you a book hoarder? Do you freqeuently donate books you’ve already read? Are there just some books you can’t bear to part with? Or do you (like me) not like the idea of parting with your babies?


The Sea of Tranquility: Review

Release Date: November 13th 2012
Genres: YA, Contemporary, Mystery
Publisher: Atria Books
Series: Standalone
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
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Summary:I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck. I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet to walk.Former piano prodigy Nastya Kashnikov wants two things: to get through high school without anyone learning about her past and to make the boy who took everything from her—her identity, her spirit, her will to live—pay.Josh Bennett’s story is no secret: every person he loves has been taken from his life until, at seventeen years old, there is no one left. Now all he wants is be left alone and people allow it because when your name is synonymous with death, everyone tends to give you your space.Everyone except Nastya, the mysterious new girl at school who starts showing up and won’t go away until she’s insinuated herself into every aspect of his life. But the more he gets to know her, the more of an enigma she becomes. As their relationship intensifies and the unanswered questions begin to pile up, he starts to wonder if he will ever learn the secrets she’s been hiding—or if he even wants to.

The Sea of Tranquility is one of those books that no one will ever be able to review and do justice too. It’s impossible. The sheer depth this book explored completely floored me. I was not expecting any of that. The thing about this book is that it’s memorable. I don’t think i’ll ever be able to really forget my reading experience with it. I’m pretty sure thirty years from now i’ll look back and think “God, I remember being such a slobbering mess when I read The Sea of Tranquility” and i’m happy about that.

“‘I messed up everything I baked in the beginning,too.’ She tells me, switching back to our last conversation. I find that hard to believe. I imagine she came out of the birth canal holding a cupcake and a spatula.”― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility

The thing about this book is that it’s truly heartbreaking story but it’s also completely hilarouis— Oh and also a complete mind fuck. The begining of this book really takes its time in letting the reader learn more about each individual character. It was a sort of examination of everyone’s psyche. While this part is slower than the rest of the book it was never boring. No, every character was just so properly developed and explored in this part that I was fully invested. Nastya, Drew and Josh all three also had great chemistry with one another and freqeuently said things that had me laughing out loud. The inner dialogue was also just this perfect blend of witty, cheeky and sacastic.There’s also this mystery factor in The Sea of Tranquility surrounding Nastya and Josh that’s the real mind fuck part but I won’t say much about that because you should read that part for yourselves. 

“How come you call her honey and never use terms of endearment on me?’ he fake whines, ‘i do,’ Mrs.Leighton says, patting him on the cheek as she walks by. ‘Just last week I called you the bane of my existence.’― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility

Nastya and Josh both have complicated pasts, they have ghosts that constantly haunt them. But during the first part of the book Nastya takes to running away from her problems while Josh shuts them all out completely.While Josh and Nastya are trying to learn about each other we’re trying to learn about them. What first’s brings Nastya and Josh together are the horrors of their pasts and when their friendship turns into a full fledge romance (it was a slow building romance that was just perfect) they try to help one another cope.While this works at first it quickly becomes apparent that things if held onto for too long and too tightly, inevitably explode.

The second part of this book just completely wrecks your life. Josh and Nastya finally start to understand that they can’t  to run away from their problems and learn that they need to actually acknowledge that they exist.

When a book deals with such important and sensitive issues it’s easy to sometimes get annoyed at the main characters for their lack of judgment based on prevouis life experiences and horrors. Sure, we can sympathize with them but sometime’s there still that nagging feeling that the character should have known better and not done this or that and things would have been so much simpler. But in The Sea of Tranquility Nastya’s psyche was captured so perfectly it felt like someone tied a lasso around her and me and connected our thoughts and feelings togther to mirror each others. I could understand Nasdya and what she was feeling and why she was feeling it. All the poor decisions she made I could understand why they were made and justify them.

I think it’s pretty obvouis that this book made me lose sleep. A ton of sleep actually and i don’t regret one second. The Sea of Tranquility also made me cry, it made me (ugly) cry a lot and you can probably guess that I don’t regret that either. You see, this book made me feel things I haven’t felt in so long. I can’t even begin to describe how intense reading this book was, it was just so powerful that when I wasn’t spending my time reading the book I was constantly thinking about it.

What’s Up With the Cover for The Treatment?

A few days ago I was on twitter when I saw a photo Suzanne Young uploaded of the final two hardback versions of The Program duet books! I was actually lucky enough to have gotten a chance to get an e-arc of The Treatment (which was serouisly awesome) a few months back but noticed that the cover was so different than the final cover version. And while I know this tends to sometimes happen I couldn’t help but notice that the cover’s didn’t sit well with me. While the covers individually look good i didn’t like how they didn’t properly fit together. it annoyed me a bit. When I saw Suzanne’s photo the first thing I immedately thought was “Those aren’t going to look nice on my shelf together”  LOL


I’m not a huge fan of the cover for The Treatment. Originally the one that came with my arc was the cover below and I just felt like it suited the book, better? LOL maybe it’s just me and i’m just weird.

Either way i’m interested in hearing what YOU think! Do you like the covers Suzanne Young featured in her twitter photo? Or are you like me and think “other” cover suited the series better? Which one do you think looks best with the first book side by side? Or do you think something else? Let me know, below!

To All the Boys I’ve loved Before(To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before#1):Review

Release Date: April 15th  2014 *UPCOMING*
Genres: YA, Romance
Publisher: Simon & Shuester Books for Young Readers *ARC from Publisher*
Series: Book one of duet
Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
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Summary:  To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before is the story of Lara Jean, who has never openly admitted her crushes, but instead wrote each boy a letter about how she felt, sealed it, and hid it in a box under her bed. But one day Lara Jean discovers that somehow her secret box of letters has been mailed, causing all her crushes from her past to confront her about the letters: her first kiss, the boy from summer camp, even her sister’s ex-boyfriend, Josh. As she learns to deal with her past loves face to face, Lara Jean discovers that something good may come out of these letters after all.

Jenny Han has been on my auto buy author list since I first read The Summer I Turned Pretty trilogy. So imagine my surprise when I come home to an ARC of her latest book To All the Boys I Loved Before at my door. I squealed. It was the kind of squeal that I would have been embarrassed about had I not been so excited to get my hands on since I first heard Jenny Han announce the title over twitter back in 2012. And the cover…OhMyGawd guys don’t even get me started on how amazing this cover is.

To All the Boys I Loved Before wasn’t what I expected but it was a nice surprise. Lara Jean experiences the one thing that would freak out any girl, her private love letters to her crushes from over the years get sent out and they read them. What ensues is a major disaster; Lara Jean is forced to own up to the letters and deal with the repercussions.

I have to give Jenny Han major credit here for the most realistic sisterly dynamic i’ve read in YA in a long time. It felt very authentic and I could literally see correlations between the relationship between my sister and I and the three Song sisters in the book. The good and the bad my sister and I experience was within the pages of To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before and the whole push and pull thing we keep doing now that we’ve entered such different stages in our lives and are learning to do things more and more independently was perfectly potrayed between Lara Jean and Margot.

While the synopsis does give a brief idea as to what happens in the book it doesnt even begin to cover the major plotline and that’s why i’m being extra careful with what I say as I think it’s best going into this book as blind as possible.

I totally thought the book was going to start off with Lara Jean’s letters being sent out and than all the boys knocking on her doorstep looking for answers but it wasn’t. Instead the book starts off by giving us a clear picture into who Lara Jean is, her family dynamic and the important boys in her life and then the whole letters come and ruin everything. I won”t say more about them but will  admit i am super releaved their is another book coming out next year and that it hopefully delves deeper into the romance development as I feel all the romantic interests for Lara Jean and Lara Jean herself weren’t in the best of places in this book so we’ll see.

If your like me and have Jenny Han on your auto buy list than To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before is an absolute must read and if your into anything romantic in YA than I highly reccomend checking out Jenny Han if you haven’t before because she never disapoints!

Reading All The Books at Once

Lately, my TBR pile has been getting longer and longer. My to-review pile has also been getting longer and longer and because of this I started to Panic. And because I started panicing I decided to take it to twitter to ask what everyone else does when they notice their reading pile getting out of hand. I  needed a solution, because like any good reader I JUST WANT TO READ ALL THE BOOKS.

A few people started telling me that they actually read several books at once. Be it for review purposes or because they are INSANE (kidding,,,maybe) and like to juggle multiple books at once. I was flabbergasted since I didn’t actually know people do this. I didn’t even know it was possible to do this. I’ve always been a one book type of a reader. I feel like If i were to start reading more than one book at the same time than I would just end up getting confused. Especially if they happen to be in the same genre; like reading two different fantasy books at the same time would defintely give me headache. Is it the MC in book one that has magical powers or is it the second one? 

What about you guys? Do you tend to read several books at once?  If so, are they the same genre or are they completely different? And, have you ever gotten confused while reading two books at once? Or, like me, do you only read one book at a time? 


Mini Reviews: DNF edition

This is weird guys. I’ve never done mini reviews in my blogging life before (probably because I have so much to ALWAYS say about a book that a mini review woudn’t be sufficient?) Probably, but the other day i couldn’t shake this nagging feeling to do one. You see guys I don’t usually review books I mark as DNF ,as you’ve probably noticed. I feel like if I just couldn’t connect with the book and had to put it down it’s sort of unfair for me to write a whole review post on it. Anyways, the nagging feeling that wouldn’t shake came from me feeling as if even though I didn’t manage to finish Panic by Lauren Oliver or Rise by Anna Carey I still had stuff to say on just why i didn’t manage to finish them. While I don’t know if Mini Reviews on DNF books is going to become a thing on Lilysbookblog I did just want to write a post on these two books.

Panic by Lauren Oliver

Release Date: March 4th 2014
Genres: YA, contemporary, Suspence
Publisher: HarperCollins
Series: Standalone
Rating: DNF
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Summary: Panic began as so many things do in Carp, a dead-end town of 12,000 people in the middle of nowhere: because it was summer, and there was nothing else to do.Heather never thought she would compete in Panic, a legendary game played by graduating seniors, where the stakes are high and the payoff is even higher. She’d never thought of herself as fearless, the kind of person who would fight to stand out. But when she finds something, and someone, to fight for, she will discover that she is braver than she ever thought.Dodge has never been afraid of Panic. His secret will fuel him, and get him all the way through the game, he’s sure of it. But what he doesn’t know is that he’s not the only one with a secret. Everyone has something to play for.For Heather and Dodge, the game will bring new alliances, unexpected revelations, and the possibility of first love for each of them—and the knowledge that sometimes the very things we fear are those we need the most.

In all honestly I wasn’t even planning on reading this book. i had loved Lauren Oliver’s Before I Fall & Deliruim but than the last two books of the Deliruim trilogy fell flat for me and I made a vow to not read anything else by this author. I realized that I wasn’t a huge fan of Oliver’s world building style, or lack of and since that’s such an important factor for me when reading I decided to save myself the heartache and avoid this book. But after reading a few five star reviews for Panic i decided to go back on my word and give this one a shot.

And I ended up not being able to finish it.

I got about halfway through this book before DNF-ing it. I tried, i really did but I just couldn’t believe Panic. At the start of the book Heather explains that Panic had been set up since god knows when and everyone is forced to give a dollar everyday of high school throughout the full four years to contribute to Panic.  If someone doesn’t give money they’re belongings get vandalized and they get harrassed, etc. Panic also happens to be run in secret by teenagers.This was the first major problem for me I coulnd’t believe this one bit. How is it possible that something run by teenagers never once gets shut down? How is it possible that the police never once manage to catch the people behind “panic” who are harrassing kids for not giving money? How are the principles of the school letting people take money form their students? THIS JUST WOULND’T HAPPEN!

I also found the whole aspect of the teenagers in secret making up the challenges for the contestants utterly unrealistic. How can anyone join a competition (even for a large sum of money) that threatens their lives and is ONLY run by their fellow peers? I mean for god’s sake I would not cross a plank that’s suspended over a cliff for any amount of money if i don’t know that PROFESSIONALS made sure it was safe. I also managed to guess the twist a few chapters into the book. While I never managed to finish Panic i did message a fellow blogger asking if my assumptions of the ending were right and appearently they were. So that didn’t help.


Rise by Anna Carey

Release Date: April 2nd 2013
Genres: YA, Dystopia
Publisher: HarperCollins
Series:  Eve, Once book 3 of 3
Rating: DNF
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Summary:When she lost her soul mate, Caleb, Eve felt like her world had ended. Trapped in the palace, forced to play the part of the happy, patriotic princess of The New America—and the blushing bride of her father’s top adviser—Eve’s whole life is a lie. The only thing that keeps her going is Caleb’s memory, and the revolution he started.Now, Eve is taking over where Caleb left off. With the help of Moss, an undercover subversive in the King’s court, she plots to take down The New America, beginning with the capital, the City of Sand. Will Eve be able to bring about a new, free world when she’s called upon to perform the ultimate act of rebellion—killing her father?In Rise, Eve must choose who to leave behind, who to save, and who to fight as Anna Carey’s epic tale of romance and sacrifice in the chilling dystopia of The New America comes to a stunning conclusion.

I have a love/hate relationship with this series. While the first two books didn’t WOW me they kept me interested enough to finish reading both books and pick up the sequel.But while the first two books kept me at least interested in the story Rise just didn’t. I put this one down at around the hundred page mark and started reading another book. I was frustrated with Rise. To be honest I didn’t care much about the plot and just wanted to know what happened to Caleb and since I wasn’t getting answers I put the book down. A few days and other books later I decided to give it another go but before then I decided to cheat a bit and read the last few sentences of the book. I wanted to at least get an idea that it would surely get a bit better. I was wrong. The very last page is all about Eve going to finally see Caleb.

Yeah, I wasn’t a happy camper. I promply through the book at the wall and stormed away all dramaticly (I should have been a theatre kid, i’m a natural) I felt cheated. Caleb technically doesn’t even make an appearence in the final book! We just learn that he’s at least alive. BUT THAT ISN’T GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. I wanted to see them as a couple. I wanted to know what he’s been up to the last few months he’s been MIA. And I wanted to know his reaction when he learns that Eve’s preggers. Yeah, I was disapointed. Majorly disapointed.

How about you guys? Do you guys usually review books you mark as DNF? Have you read Panic by Lauren Oliver or Rise by Anna Carey? Did you like the books or did you feel similar to me? Let me know in the comments! 

Four Seconds to Loose (Ten Tiny Breaths #3): Review

Release Date: April 1st 2014 *UPCOMING*
NA, Romance
Atria Books *ARC from Publisher* 
Book three 
 5 out of 5 stars
Owning a strip club isn’t the fantasy most guys expect it to be. With long hours, a staff with enough issues to keep a psych ward in business, and the police regularly on his case, twenty-nine-year-old Cain is starting to second guess his unspoken mission to save the women he employs. And then blond, brown-eyed Charlie Rourke walks through his door, and things get really complicated. Cain abides by a strict “no sleeping with the staff” rule. But being around Charlie challenges Cain’s self-control…and it’s been a long time since any woman has done that. Twenty-two-year-old Charlie Rourke needs a lot of money, really fast, in order to vanish before it’s too late. Taking her clothes off for men makes her stomach curl but Charlie tells herself that at least she’s putting her acting and dancing skills to good use. And though her fellow dancers seem eager to nab their sexy, sophisticated, and genuinely caring boss, she’s not interested. After all, Charlie Rourke doesn’t really exist—and the girl pretending to be her can’t get distracted by romance.Unfortunately, Charlie soon discovers that developing feelings for Cain is inevitable, and that those feelings may not be unrequited—but losing him when he finds out what she’s involved with will be more painful than any other sentence awaiting her.

Four Seconds to Loose completely blew me away. I’ve been eagerly anticipating this one for what seems like EVER. But i still didn’t expect to be completely owned by this story and it’s characters.

I skipped sleep and a gym trip to finish this book in a day because i just couldn’t fathom putting the book down. I was so completely hooked to the romance and the sotry itself. Four Seconds to Loose gave me as a reader EVERYTHING;  abusive families, drug trafficking, character development, unexpected twists, and a swoon worthy romance. It was perfect.

Now have I already mentioned Cain? No? Oh….my bad. Ladies if you have yet to meet this man I suggest remedying that ASAP because Cain Ford  is the best good guy ever. He’s the ex-bad boy who made some not so great choices when he was younger but when the story begins we meet a Cain who had moved past that ugly stage in his life and is the good guy. He cares about all those around him and has a heart of gold. Cain was just an all around sweet and generous guy and made it his mission to help girls who slipped into the world of drugs and violence and he never tried to take advantage of them.

I loved Cain and Charlies’d relationship. Their relationship development also felt very authentic and felt like it fit with the story. They were really cute and you could just tell they loved each other. Cain didn’t run away when things got ugly, he faced them headon and let Charlie know he was the man for her. Charlie’s story was also really complex and messed up and i was so shocked as to how her story played out. 

While i enjoyed all aspects of the book and it’s ending i have to admit their was one certain part that i wish could have been different. I’m not saying i didn’t enjoy it or that it was bad; because it wasn’t. I just wish that at the end we could have spent a bit more time on the now with Charlie and Cain after everything they go through. But i did enjoy learning a few things about what awaits them in the future.

Now if your a fan of K.A Tucker i strongly recommend reading this book because it kicked MAJOR ass and if you haven’t read anything by her before i suggest reavulating your life choices and reading this book asap.

“I believe some people are inherently evil. I believe guilt is a powerful motivator. I believe redemption is something you can strive for but never fully achieve. I believe second chances exist only in dreams, never in reality. I believe you don’t have years, or months, or weeks to impact a person’s life. You have seconds. Seconds to win them over, And seconds to lose them.
― K.A. Tucker, Four Seconds to Lose



Maybe, Someday: Review

Release Date: March 18th 2014
Genres: NA, Romance
Publisher: Atria Books
Series: Standalone
Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
Summary: At twenty-two years old, aspiring musician Sydney Blake has a great life: She’s in college, working a steady job, in love with her wonderful boyfriend, Hunter, and rooming with her good friend, Tori. But everything changes when she discovers Hunter cheating on her with Tori—and she is left trying to decide what to do next.Sydney becomes captivated by her mysterious neighbor, Ridge Lawson. She can’t take her eyes off him or stop listening to the daily guitar playing he does out on his balcony. She can feel the harmony and vibrations in his music. And there’s something about Sydney that Ridge can’t ignore, either: He seems to have finally found his muse. When their inevitable encounter happens, they soon find themselves needing each other in more ways than one…

“A life of mediocrity is a waste of a life.”

― Colleen Hoover, Maybe Someday

Reviewing this book is difficult because my thoughts on this book are constantly changing. Initially when reading I had completely fallen in love with the story. There were a few things that bugged me a little bit but i quickly let them go because i was just so into Ridge and Sydney’s romance. Maybe I was blinded by the love I have for this author but a few hours after finishing it I started to realize certain things that hadn’t worked for me. I started realizing major character flaws and i realized that this book wasn’t all the great for me. But still, i didn’t do a complete 180 and start hating this book because i didn’t. If anything i really enjoyed reading it initially it’s just that whenever i look back on it i realize I wish something *cough* someone *cough*  hadn’t been brought into the story and tainted it. Because if this character hadn’t been in the plot at all in Maybe,Someday this could have been a really swoon worthy love story.

I need to begin by saying that the beginning of this book was good. I love how Sydney and Ridge first begin to text each other and how it’s music that brings them together. I like how Ridge let Sydney into his apartment after she becomes stranded but everything went kind of downhill from there. Sydney and Ridge had a serouis problem with both trying to play the victim roles when it came to thier “romance”. They both should have handled their situation differently. They acted way to innocent for my liking and were so unreasonable about the simplest of things it was just annoying.

There were some serouis sexual tension between between Ridge and Syndey and i liked Sydney’s characterization in itself but the whole romance thing (which dominates pretty much the entire book) was not wokring for me when I looked back on it.  I’m also starting to notice that a major recurring theme in Colleen Hoovers books is the whole “illness” thing. While it may have worked in the Slammed books it just seemed like a cop out for Maybe, Someday. It seemed in part a way for a certain character to gain sympathy and juat another trick to add more drama in the characters lives. It failed to feel authentic.

Warren was the comedic relief of the story and felt like the only normal character. I admired his long lasting friendship with Ridge and with Sydney. He proved at the end of the novel to be the guy who just wanted what was best for everyone.

The ending proved to improve quite a bit but only after a certain conversation that seemed to happen way to fast and less dramatic than it should have been. A certain character also came to conclusions way to quickly for my liking and i would have preffered if WAY more time had passed before they suddenly made senese of everything. While the VERY ending was sweet and did give me a bit of the FEELS i would have preffered if it ended a bit differently.

“I want to be your end, but you gotta let it begin.”
― Colleen Hoover, Maybe Someday